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*NERDY MAMA!
Hey hey. My parents are Hoochie Mama and Nerdy Papa, hence my name is Nerdy Mama.
I wear a pair of RED-framed glasses, which i think i look good in. Hee... And I'm seen with a book wherever I go. I'm a geek who is living in my little world full of Elves, Pixie Dust and Tiny Shoemakers. My friends know me for the crazy biatch i am sometimes, but of course the typical me don't give a damn. I in love with the man, that is the complete opposite of me BUT nevertheless i believe we were made for each other, dun you think so?
-That's me (-_____-)
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    Moving Out!!! GOODBYE there's no sadder word to say.....
    Friday, October 31, 2008 || 8:40 PM

    Today, i packed my bags ready to move out on Monday. When i was packing my bags, it suddenly dawn on me how i will really miss my family. Even though, there is not always many good times that we have spend with each other but i will sure miss being apart of this family. My mother would be moving out on Saturday and i would be moving out on Monday because of my Social Studies Examination I could not move out.
    Thinking about the countless times that my aunt have helped me to cook breakfast and lunch and dinner. How she always remember to know what i like and she will get it for me. Even though it is just a meal but i know that this is the way of her saying that she care. She is always able to help me in some other way. She runs the house with an iron fist.. Hahaha... I am going to miss her asking me to study... I am really going to miss her... But i will make it a custom to come home every Friday to eat dinner with my family. I dun want them to think that i will not come back anymore once i leave this house. I am surely not that kind of person...
    I am going to miss my father too.. He is not going to be able to send me to school liao.. hahaha... hais.. I am just going to go out of this house with a smile and a humble attitude.. Hahaha...

    Midnight study...
    Sunday, October 26, 2008 || 3:50 AM

    Now it is 3.45 am in the morning.. I am now officially worn out and damn tired.. But i am very happy at least i manged to study finish 3 chapters of history and have managed to memorise all of them.. Hahaha... i have 2 more chapters to go.. Jia you!! Wa.. I hate the topics on Russia and China... God help me man!!
    Some more during the period of my exams days.. My stupid handphone is spoiled.. Not spoiled as in cannot use but spoiled as in the top slide of it cannot slide down.. my slide phone is officially a open phone.. Hais.. My mother went to bring the phone for service but the person never do a good job. He said that the phone is fixed but when the phone is brought home.... the damn phone cannot close again!!! ARGH!!! I an going down tml to check on my phone again.. If still cannot be fixed then it is time!!! TO CHANGE A NEW PHONE!!! YEAH man.. even though it would be a lot of work changing a new phone.. But i am finally able to get a PDA for myself.. But i think for this time i should actually pay half of it. to be fair lah.. Right? Oh man i want a DUPOD!! for myself.. When i start poly this phone would be my timetable, my alarm clock, my list of things to do, my mini laptop!! Yup.. I am really hoping for one.. Even though i know that i have to wait for maybe one more year.. Then i am able to buy a new phone!!! Hahaha.... Hope that i am able to bring this phone for the UWC selection. And maybe overseas too!!
    I hope that i am able to be selected for this scholarship!! I want to travel overseas and to be able to study in a new environment. Italy!! I want to go there.. I hope this phone that i am looking forward to change would come in handy when i am at overseas.. WINK!!!WINK!!! Oh god.. i am really sorry for the things i have done... i hope that i could be forgiven.. I will do my best in resisting temptation.... Muwahahahah.... Please dun let it affect my future man!! hahahah... UWC: i really hope that they have received my application form... Oh man... I am very worried that my latter came one day late leh!! how? If that's the case them how sway can i get man!!
    I hope to go to Italy because it is a very beautiful place and full of culture and designs.. I want to just immerse myself in this wonderful enviroment.. I want to pursue designing too if i have the chance... But i also cannot leave psychology alone.. So i will probably just see first lor. I told my mother if i am able to go to UWC then maybe i will pursue Psychology. Because Psychology is difficult to pursue in Singapore.. So if i am able to go overseas then i will have to do it man.. It is my one and only chance.. Hahaha.... But i dun want to chose the wrong path too.. So i have to choose wisely.. Tough decision to make.. All the best man!! JIA YOU!!!!!

    Midnight study...
    || 3:50 AM


    Sunday, October 19, 2008 || 5:14 PM

    Somemore PHOTOS!!! Of graduation day : TEACHERS and PEEPS!!



    Thanks for Everything Sis!!!
    || 4:47 PM



    The recent post was about me unable to go out to meet Da jie and Er jie.. I whine about that stupid incident.. But i really didn't expect them to be so innovative about this celebration.. At around 10.00 pm...Er jie called me and asked me whether i was asleep yet? I wondered to myself since when she was so concern about wat time i sleep? I suspect something was wrong. Something confirm my thoughts when she asked me to come out? At first i though her meaning of coming out was to go out, i was like " How on earth do you want to me to come out when i told you in the morning that i can't. What makes you think that i can at night?" But then she told me to proceed outside my house. I was so shock!! i though she came all the way to my house to sleepover (I mean sleepover is fine but sleeping over for a totally different reason is not exactly fine.) So i went out to take a look.. And i saw Da jie and her standing outside my house.. So i talk to myself... since they are here that means they have brought the party to me? Since i can't go out they brought it here. And i was right!! I saw Da jie holding to a small cake and Er jie trying to hide it from me? That part i dun understand.. Seriously they wanted to show me the cake but they put a PizzaHut brochure on the outside to cover it.. Hais... What does study do to our heads..

    So i let them in.. And we blow out the cake and talk a little.. They bought me a bag from Ink , that bag i have wanted. Plus they also bought for me a Princess Crown hair clip.... hahaha... so cute..
    Anyway i want to thank my 2 BEAUTIFUL SISTERS for helping me celebrate my birthday even though it is on 22 Oct but it is the though that counts!! I am so bringing the bag tml!! see you guys!! and Jia You for Chemistry !!!!

    SORRY!!! I couldn't get out there... SO sorry...
    Saturday, October 18, 2008 || 4:00 PM

    Today i woke up and received a message from da jie saying that i am suppose to meet them(da jie and er jie) in cityhall at 6.00pm. I woke up seeing that, i felt happy at least they wanted to celebrate my birthday in advance. I was really happy. However, when i told my aunt, she wasn't too happy about it. She said that i have just recover from a fever and i shouldn't go out and expose myself to other virus out there. I am pharsing this in the nicest way possible. Cause she ain't that nice when she said that. Anyway, i was tired of fighting with her. Trying to get my way and win.. So i just said that i am not going. I was really very angry and trying to hide my feelings by just shutting myself out. I can't just talk back to her. It would be very rude and ill mannered of myself. So i shut up.

    Then later upon hearing the news that i wasn't going anymore, da jie begin to sms me many messages telling me that she told her mother not to cook dinner for her already and now i said i cannot go. Futhermore, er jie begin to sms me also telling me that she discuss this issue with me last monday and persude me to go out for this outing. " It's only dinner.." she will say. Er jie asked me not to back out halfway. But i couldn't get out, now that i have told my family members that i am not going out anymore. i couldn't just come and go as i want. So sadly, i have to stand my ground and say a firm NO. Hais... I really wanted to spent time with them, you know!!

    But i realise that at this crucial stage of my life, i shouldn't be letting anyone tell me that i cannot go out. Instead i should have knows this myself. Afterall, it is me who is taking the Os not my aunt. I should have said no long before this happen. I should have said No on monday liao.. Hahaha... Anyway now i blogging about this so i can get this out of my mind and concentrate on my chemistry.

    Jia you!! We all can do it! Yeah.... (>.<)

    Monday, October 13, 2008 || 1:54 AM

    Recently I have been doubting myself. On whether i am able to do a good job. But some how I feel very helpless.. I really dunno Wat to do besides studding. But every time i rest or study i always feel that it is not enough. And when i think about it, them i lose the will to continue studding. I feel that even though i have great ambitions but i dun think i am able to use them into my fullest potential. Oh god ,please give me strength. I know i have done wrong things in my life. However i need your strength and your courage to pull through this. Hais.. actually it is not a big deal.. It is i who i making a big fuss about it. However i just can't help but feeling worried and uncertain about how i am able to face my exams and then results. I dun want to be the one in my family w2ho is not able to do well or even excel in her own duty. Why do i treat it as a duty? Because we all have to go through this stage in life, where your parents tells you to study hard and get a good future. But i feel that even though your get a good result but it all boils down to your attitude and how your present yourself to the world. the world is not as bad as it seems. However to certain people who dun treat it as something important in their life will feel that life's being unfair towards them.
    God i am really very confused about Wat i really want. I know i said that i want to go into psychology but do i really have Wat it takes? Why do i keep doubting myself. i hate this feeling and this attitude. But i seem to just can't get rid of it. I believe in myself as my mother tell me. That i can do it. Oh God.. i am so sorry for being a weakling. I am not talking about my studies. God you know Wat it is. I have decided to follow Benji to church even Sunday after my exams. I can't promise but this is something i try to do ok? I want to get a good grade. i know i can do it... Thanks god.. I know that you will be with everybody in the exam hall.. Bless us and hope that my whole class is able to score well.. Be the best 5N1 normal academic class. in Zhonghua Secondary' History.
    To Pei Shan: if you are reading this... All i want to say is that all the best for your exams and may you have a bright future ahead of you. People make mistakes and people will gradually learn to change from it. I believe that you can do it. Take this as a learning step ba. In the real world people ain't gonna be so kind. Dun get angry often. Dun always want things to go your own way, accept new offers and advice from other people. Take of your health and try not to get sick so often. try to get an MC every time you are sick. (expensive rite seeing doctor? so dun get sick so often..) Lastly.. It was nice to have known you for the past 5 years even though some of them wasn't in a nice experience. all the best for you, gal.. I won't say sorry, you know that.. We dun think we are wrong but if you dun think you are wrong also then there's nothing to hide.

    P.S Thanks for the present.. i have nothing to give you but only this message and advice.. Doing my last duty as a friend.