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Tution!! Can i handle it?
Wednesday, November 26, 2008 || 12:00 AM
I finally managed to get a job from my mother's ex colleague.. I would be giving tuition to her 2 children.. A girl and a boy... I seriously wonder what would it be like teaching other people? How should i start teaching them? I think i better ask for advice.. Hahaha... BUT i dunno who to ask... Miss Wong? or My tuition teacher,Dave? Let's see... Hmmm if i ask Miss Wong I am sure she will laugh at me man.. And begin to remind of my tenses!! Argh... Hais.... And if i ask my tuition teacher i think he will just give me a very super duper neutral answer.. Like for example... " I dunno.. It depends on your student..." Which is true even though it sounded very useless. But it is true... Maybe i should teach the kid first then come back home and gage from there.. And if i am lost or not very sure as to what i am suppose to do i could just call and ask.. There i solved my own problem on the Internet.. talking to myself.. Hais.. I am going mad these days..
I am not able to use the computer these days... Cause it belongs to my uncle and he has a very different working schedule.. Thus the computer is usually used by him.. Furthermore i am also not able to access the TV at home.. Cause apparently my grandfather likes to watch the news of many countries.. Hais.. What can i do? Therefore i only able to stay at home and watch rented VCDs... And read my novel..
BUT i am feeling very happy today cause my mother helped me to find a job.. As i have said in the above paragraph.. YEAH!!!!!! I am so excited to take up that job man.. Wish me luck!! I am gonna need it!!
Open house...
Saturday, November 22, 2008 || 3:51 PM
I am now at my school's open house.. I came here with CHAO JUN, one of my good friend.. But apparently she decided to go MIA on me.. I was about to step into my school's D&T room, when miss tan here told me that she have to go to to toilet THEN BAM!!!! She disappear.. i called her and all i got was one pathetic SMS saying that she is would be going home.. Erm to be exact she send this.." erm... I will be going home first hor.. Bye... " Like that leh! Oh man this women is getting on my nerve every one last of them... How could she just say go then go arh? Really not being a friend man.. hahaha... hais... So now i am here with May, and Vanessa...
Well man.. I am now really missing my dada... Hope to see him soon.. He has been working the whole day yesterday and now still carry on working..
He actually have 2 off days one..But because of something meeting his only 2 off days have been cancelled!!!! ARGH!!! I cannot spend time with him... Anyway maybe tml i will be going to see him? Who knows? See whether he is free anot.. hais...
LOVESICK BABY!!!
Staying Alone... Empty Shell..
Friday, November 21, 2008 || 5:39 PM
I am now officially staying at my grandmother's house.. Now it sudden dawn on me that actually i am all alone.. Even though i have something on my heart i would tell me mother.. but now i realise that i would tell everything.. I will still keep certain things in my heart hoping that i would be gone after some time.. If i dun think about... But it seems that it is not possible.. Many people have a problem dealing with their problems but looks like mine is here to stay.. I just can't seem to get it off me after all.. I am stuck with it for the rest of my life.. I have no one to blame but only me for accepting something i shouldn't have a long time ago..
I wasn't a child once i took it. I should have said something.. Anything will do... but i didn't, i just couldn't do it.. Why should it happen to me? Something i would really like to know... Even though many people tell me not to care about it but in the end it all still evolve around me.. No matter what i do.. I am caught up with this horrible past of me and it would be something i can never change... I dun think i have done anything wrong and i would continue to do it. Because i know that i am helping my mother. I am giving her another life.. Away from the pain and suffering.. I am still young and i have a long time ahead of me.. But not my mother.. She deserves a new life.. my mother tried to stay in a situation that was not going anywhere.. All she was doing was to get me going on.. So now when i am able to understand the important of this situation.. I knew i was ready to face the truth... The ugly truth, that i tried to hide from myself...
But now i am awake and aware of how dispensable of me.. I got to be strong for my mother. I cannot crumble and fall.... Recently i few songs sang by certain artist really touched me with their words...
1. Beyonce : Save the hero
2. Christina : Oh mother
3. Pussycat Dolls : I hate this part
These songs really touched me.... I cried listening to Beyonce - save the hero... Not saying that i am the hero but in this situation i have these feelings that are expressed by this song... Whose's there to save the gal after she saves the world?
