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"I'm In LOVE with a Fairytale,take ME away Mr Prata Man”

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Wanted to have a new look... And since my father kept telling me to cut my hair... I decided that it should be OK to start off my poly year with a new and fresh haircut... SO off to the salon i went with chao jun of course... Love her for being so sweet to follow me to the hair salon...
Carefully choosing the hairstyle i want and consulting Chao Jun from time to time... But she cannot give me any serious answer cause she is fooling around whenever she is with me.... Hais...

This is the final picture!!!! thank you chao jun for helping me to upload the pic... And for being my camera "women" for the day.. Busy snapping pics in the salon...
Wa i really love you!!! Chao-San... ( Oh shit i think i am really addicted to Japanese anime liao...)
Well... Da jie will have to do the brainwashing.... And i tell you and she is liking it!!!



Today was a tiring day. Went out to give tuition to my cousin... He is not very good in his accounts, but i believe with some nagging and truckloads of saliva. I would be able to help him. I hope that he would get a B3 for his accounts... Hahaha..

Anyway tml i would be able to see my dada... Very madly happy... Haven been seeing him for 4 to 5 days already... Miss him very badly... But i seriously doubt that he got receive my message....

When i come home from tuition... I have been trying to control my hunger in me man... Oh man... You have no idea how hungry i was and i swear that i could eat a bull let alone a cow... Along the damn way home, there were all sorts of temptation just waiting for me to raise the white flag... But i was sure as hell that i wouldn't... Because i didn't want to spend my ANG POW MONEY!!! I saved about $*** and i wasn't ready to spend it on anything yet... So i have decided to save it!!! TADA!!!!

I am still going to get my salary and then use it to buy a Valentine gift.. But i really think that dada have forgotten about it already.. He is not a man that will remember it. Only birthdays, i guess...
Furthermore, i have just realise that my bus fare have up it's price... Actually saying that i am officially OLD!!!! I can no longer top up $5 as a minimum amount liao ... It has become $10!!!! ARGH!!!!!

Until now i still have no idea when i will be able to start school... Tml will do some poking around trying to get somebody who knows to tell me... HAHAHA... Aren't i a stinker.... Well, just got to play my cards right....

Will be in going in Apparel Design and Merchandising..... I think that the first year i would be sewing things ( Bits and pieces of fabric and buttons together.) God save me... Second year then i will major... Into Retail and Merchandising ....

Future job would be a Fashion Journalist, Assistant Buyer, Fashion Stylist ( more of like an image consultant) But hopefully after my three years in TP, I would be able to be a buyer in a high end fashion outlet at PARAGON!!!! Or maybe work in a Fashion Magazine as a Fashion Journalist or Fashion Stylist.... Also hope to be able to go to uni... To studying international relations and something to do with mingle with humans in my company..... HAHAHA... What can i say I'm a talker...

There are things that i have in my life which i am not very proud of. This Sunday i will be going to church with my Boyfriends family. I am nervous and excited... I wanted to find closure for so long about something that has been bugging me but i dunno where is the place where i can find myself. But i think that God have send Benji to me as a blessing and he will be the one who will lead me to church and finally into God's arms.... I am just scare that God will not accept me anymore.. Have he given me too many chances already that now i will be judged without a trial? I am only 17 but yet i am already a convict? In this world the sins that i have many sound like child's play to another man sins. But i know that it all depends on you. Not comparing with others. I didn't go to church when i was young and even now. I always feel that going to church is more scary then being alone on the first day of school. Because you are there but no one talks to you. People say that as a Christian they are always welcoming and ready to accept others. But i dun see that. I was too scare to even make a sound to make friends. Even when i know somebody in that church, that somebody is not going to be there for me when i need them. They are there but yet not really there. Thus when i go to the church i feel even more alone because even though you are there no one seems to notice me. I believe that a church is a place where you can be at peace with yourself. And there you will find your true self and be able to connect with God.

My ideal place of a church would be the ones that you see in Paris... All those beautiful paintings in the wall and the atmosphere of even being in a church. I dun need a priest to talk about God to me... I alone have seem his powers and how it have saved me. i just need some time alone with him. But i can never seem to find it. I just want to knee in front of him and tell him everything. Even though God can know the deepest darkest secrets in our hearts but i really want to tell him myself. I want to cry out to him and let my burden be eased. But when i am doing that i want someone close to me to be there to hold me and catch me when i fall. For many years i have been wishing for a boyfriend, many years. And finally one day in the year 2007 i have found that person.... I thank him so much for this gift. And guess what to my surprise he is a christian too... Even though he have many flaws ( well, hey! Who doesn't?), he doesn't say nice things or know how to be a gentlemanly to you and worse of all i have made him cry a few times... ( sorry... My bad..) But the best thing of all is that he LOVES me.... I know love is not everything. But he is trying i can see ( to have a better future and to prove his worth to many people and himself.) and i am also giving him the support he needs. i want him to be by my side when i need him. To be my listening ear whenever i have something to say. Or to just even let me cuddle beside him, not a word needed. I believe when a couple is in a relationship for a long period of time there have nothing to say to each other. Not in a bad way, but they are just able to be right beside each other and no say a thing not because they have no feelings for each other but there are no words needed between them.

After soooo much crap... I still can't believe i am going to a church for the first time in 5 years. I really hope that i can still feel the same with him as i did many years ago. But this time would be different because i would not be alone... I have someone to hold my hands with me. ( I am say holding hands as in a term because physically he doesn't like to hold hands, [ it is one of his flaws, sadly] )