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"I'm In LOVE with a Fairytale,take ME away Mr Prata Man”

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I am having lesson now.. But during my morning class.. I received a bad news about one of my classmate ( well, i dun really know her well, cause she just happen to be in my elective class this sem) .. She passed away yesterday afternoon.. Sadly, it wasn't due to any sickness or something like that. She took her own life and committed suicide..

It is things like that, that gets me thinking about how priceless and precious our life is to anybody around us... And how through or actions, we can totally affect or change another person's life... How Fragile and Brittle are we, be it emotions or physical or mentally. It teaches us to be humble and to look at the world in a whole new perspective..

I feel that us, human, is like a book. If we have been hurt many times in life, gradually we will have a hard book cover around us. If we open up our hearts to strangers and welcome anybody in our lives, we have a soft book cover. And us you flip the pages in each and everyone of our books, you Will get to know us and understand us. However, there are some who dun write anything in the book for anybody else to come and read.. And while reading their book, we will often see empty pages or pages filled with ink blotches but never will we be able to understand.. Until one fine day there you suddenly find pages being ripped off and the words at the end of the page is written with blood " THE END"... And we start to wonder why and cried of our loss.

I really hope that she will be in a better place and find the pace that she wanted but couldn't find in our world. Even though i many not know you very well, but i still hope and will pray for you... May you run free on wild open field, feel the wind in your hair and the grass beneath your feet. Play the with the butterflies in the morning and the fireflies at night.... i believe you will be greatly missed...

Oh gosh recently I have been going out with him too frequently already.. And it have to stop.. But dun you ever have a feeling that you want to be with somebody all the time.. Hais.. Well I have that feeling... And i feel that i should not continue being like that anymore!!! I should concentrate on my studies.. Its already been the second week of school already and yet i am still in a holiday mood.. Which is bad, cause the longer i am in it the longer i will be able to back in my studying, kan chiong mood!! Oh gosh...



Oh my gosh!!! My blog is really officially dead.. I haven post anything like forever!! Anyway there were many changes in my life since I last post something.. I Broke up with my BF.. After 2 years and 4 months i decided I didn't want to have to be having to accommodate to everything he needs... Dun get me wrong he is a good BF, but maybe I dun get the security and the maturity from him. And those 2 things is something that i have been trying to get out of him for the past 2 years plus...

Furthermore, after the break up I realize that I move on very fast... In an exceeding pace, I found someone that I like and which is able to give me security and the maturity level that I have always wanted.. I am able to tell him my problems and he is able to give me sound and logical reasons and advice.. I dun have to feel like an adult, just like how I feel when I am around Benji.. I feel that I am at the same level as him.. He is someone I can communicate.. But i know that I have to wait for a few more months because I just got out of a relationship.. So now we are both waiting ba...

Speaking of Benji and moving on, I am very worried about him. I am scare that he is not able to move on and let go of it. Of course i dun expect him to let go of something like that so fast but at least try to move on. He still calls me and sms me on a daily basis, and tells me that he misses me and want me to come back to him. Every time when he sends me these, I always feel like everything is too late, why didn't you tell me when i was right beside you, helping you through almost everything in your life. Why every time when i see you online and i try to talk to you online, you will just give me a half hearted answer and say that you are busy and then go offline straight away. But now when I am gone, you appear online almost all of the time.. And even have to pay for it when going online via mobile phone. WHY? Dun you feel that everything is too late? I still love you and I miss you of course, but that's all in the name of friendship. I dun have the BF feeling from you anymore.. I am sorry to have to say that.. But I will be here and when you have move on.. We will go out and have fun.. With smiles on our faces.. =)