Time changes everything, even you and I have changed
*NERDY MAMA!
Hey hey.
My parents are Hoochie Mama and Nerdy Papa, hence my name is Nerdy Mama.
I wear a pair of RED-framed glasses, which i think i look good in. Hee... And I'm seen with a book wherever I go.
I'm a geek who is living in my little world full of Elves, Pixie Dust and Tiny Shoemakers. My friends know me for the crazy biatch i am sometimes, but of course the typical me don't give a damn.
I in love with the man, that is the complete opposite of me BUT nevertheless i believe we were made for each other, dun you think so?
-That's me (-_____-)
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Now is 8.32 am in the morning!! I feel like a pair of smelly socks!! And the picture is the better version of what i am thinking in my head now! I when to his to fix my lappy and in the end spend the night over at his house.. And i am some one who dun like to bath in some one else's house, even though it is my boyfriend house... nope more the more it is my BOYFRIEND house!! I am not going to bath in a house full of strangers and mainly of then guys.
Then it was actually planned to wake up at 7.00 he was suppose to reach marina at 8.00am thus we were suppose to leave the house at 7.15 BUT we slept at 2.00am las night thus we WOKE up late!! At 8.00!!! Oh man, then i have no time to go home and change or even BATH!!
PLEASE DUN JUDGE PLEASE!! I DUN HAVE A CHOICE CAUSE THERE IS NO TIME TO EVEN GO HOME AGAIN AND WAIT FOR THE BUS AGAIN AND EVEN TAKE OFF MY CLOTHES TO EVEN STEP INTO THE BATHROOM TO TURN ON THE TAP!!!! I AM DEAD SERIOUS!!!
Now even he say i am lupsup ( hokkien for dirty) Which i am not!!! I refused to admit it!!!
----I REFUSE!!!----
Missed School!! And i am not happy!!
Friday, June 25, 2010 || 8:21 PM
Was suppose to go to school today but i woke up late!! Oh man, I am so screwed.. Wanted to still try to at least go to school but i know i will be scold by Desmond so the idea was completely 'pop' outta my head. Then stayed at home until 2 plus before leaving for Seow Ying house to do my report and spend some time with her. Cause we were suppose to go and cycle cause she suddenly had the urge to go and do it, but i wasn't free... Well i though i wasn't free, but instead i was cause i MISSED fucking school!!! Damn it!
I feel so damn lazy and i hate it!!! I love school!! I know you must be thinking why am i bitching about missing one lesson but i just dun like it!! At that moment that idea of missing school was great but after an hour later when you are at home but suppose to be at school sitting with your friends madly typing away on your com cause the lecturer is talking mad fast, and tat you are sooo freaking KIASU that you want to take everything down!!!
And now my lappy has also given up hope on me!! It is going to die soon, or i think it is... I dunno which is which.. but anyway it is infested with virus and i am shoo sorry for neglecting it and letting the virus eat it from the inside!! I am sorry LAPPY!!! ARGH!!! Freaking virus!! So now i am at his house, letting him try to save my com and hope that it will see my effort in wanting to cure it and it will SURVIVE!!!
And also along the way i have to pass by my school cause he lives opposite my school!!! It reminds me of my lesson i was suppose to be attending in the freaking Afternoon!! ARGH!!!! DOUBLE BLOW!!!
Ok nothing left to say!! I will be going then!!
----I am SAD =(----
POCKY!...... ME LOVES.....
Thursday, June 24, 2010 || 1:45 PM
POCKY!!!!
For this month, my module is about brand building. So i will have to choose a brand which i am going to focus throughout the whole month.. And the BRAND that pop into my head was none other then POCKY!!! I just love this cute , little adorable snack!! Don't you agree?
I remember when i was in China i was soooo addicted to POCKY that i would really buy all the flavors there is on the shelf!! There was sooooo many flavors!! Which gets me wondering why, Singapore don't have these flavors arh!! I am very upset sia! When i had to leave my POCKIES wrappers in China!!
Me loves POCKY!!!! Especially the POCKIES featured in anime... They look soooo CUTE!! hahaha.... I am going mad...
SEEEEEE!!!! Very cute right?
Hais.. ok enough of my nonsensical rumblings... I shall be on my jolly merry way to write my report in my adorable POCKIES!! Ciao!!!
Dear MUMMY.... With love your daughter With Love,
Wednesday, June 23, 2010 || 6:43 PM
She was so young with such innocent eyes She always dreamt of a fairytale life And all the things that your money can't buy She thought that he was a wonderful guy Then suddenly, things seemed to changeIt was the moment she took on his name He took his anger out on her face She kept all of her pain locked away Oh mother, be stronger From all of the tears you have shed Oh mother, don't look back Cause he'll never hurt us again So mother, I thank you For all that you've done and still do You got me, I got you Together we always pull through We always pull through We always pull through Oh mother, oh mother, oh mother It was the day that he turned on the kidsThat she knew she just had to leave him So many voices inside of her head Saying over and over and over, "You deserve much more than this." She was so sick of believing the lies and trying to hide Covering the cuts and bruises (cuts and bruises) So tired of defending her life, she could have died Fighting for the lives of her children Oh mother, be strongerFrom all of the tears you have shed (all of the tears you have shed) Oh mother, don't look back Cause he'll never hurt us again (he'll never hurt us again) So mother, I thank you (thank you)For all that you've done and still do (still do) You got me, I got you, (yeah you got me and I got you) Together we always pull through. Oh mother, oh mother, oh mother All of your life you have spent burying hurt and regret But mama, he'll never touch us again For every time he tried to bring you down Just remember who stood aroundIt's over, and we're stronger And we'll never have to go back again Oh mother, be stronger From all of the tears you have shed Oh mother, don't look back (oh mother don't look back again) Cause he'll never hurt us again (cause he'll never hurt us again) So mother, I thank you (and I thank you for all that you've done) For all that you've done and still do (together we always move on) You got me, I got you, (you got me, I got you)Together we always pull through (always pull through) We always pull through We always pull through I love you mom
Dear Mummy, this post is for you. I am so happy to have been a part of your life. Even though there are things we have been though wasn't so pleasant. And in fact almost cost you everything. But we have made it through, We made it out and have been living on our own ever since. I NEVER once regret walking out with you. I am even more proud to have said that i was there and i made it out.
Now one year since we have left, I am happy for you because you have learn to move on. You have found another love in your life. I am finally at ease, knowing that you have found someone you have been longer for. No matter what they think or say, i am always here for you. I am your mountain and your pillar of strength. Even though for now, it is been taken over by the one you love, i will still be sitting in the dark watching over you... ( not trying to sound creepy)
Even though i have also found someone whom i love, you are always going to stay in my heart.
I am forever yours, mum......
-----I LOVE YOU----
Dear DADDY...... With Love, your daughter
|| 6:23 PM
Once upon a time there was a girl In her early years she had to learn How to grow up living in a war that she called home Never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm Hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face Everytime my father's fist would put her in her place Hearing all the yelling I would cry up in my roomHoping it would be over soon
Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same And I still remember how you kept me so afraid Strength is my mother for all the love she gave Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday And I'm OK
I often wonder why I carry all this guilt When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built Shadows stir at night through a crack in the doorThe echo of a broken child screaming "please no more" Daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done To you it's just a memory, but for me it still lives on
Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same And I still remember how you kept me so, so afraid Strength is my mother for all the love she gave Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday It's not so easy to forget All the lines you left along her neck When I was thrown against cold stairs And every day I'm afraid to come home In fear of what I might see there
Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same And I still remember how you kept me so afraid Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday And I'm OK I'm OK
Dear Daddy, if you are here to read this. This was how i felt, all these years, but i tell myself that i will move on and still reach out and hold on to your hand. Cause despite all the hurt i have been through with my mother , all the tears i have shed, all the pain i have experience throughout these 16 years, i still want you.
----Cause after all that I STILL LOVE YOU----
I still want you to be there when i graduate.
I want you to be there, hearing me telling you that i have pass my driving lesson.
I still want you to sit in my car and yell at me for not driving properly.
I still want you to be there on my 21st birthday.
I still want you to be there when i introduce to you the man of my dreams, someone that will be protecting and taking of me in your place.
I still want you to walk me down the aisle.
I still want to see that kind smile one your face when you have become a grandfather and all the interesting things you will pass on to your grandchildren.
I still want to see how you open all the presents on your 100th birthday.
I just want you to be the father you are, caring, concern, loving, funny. quick witted, ever supportive, ever protective, ever mine.
No matter what happen, No matter how far or near i am.
ALL I SEE IS LOVE!!! Yes, people i am lovestruck... I am proud to be one too... I am loving the feeling of being in love with the person i hold so dear in my life. I am soo happy to have met you,
I really am...
So no matter what i write will not express what i am feeling now!!!! Found this poem in my diary from 2 years back.
I love you , my dear
to love myself.
No earthly pride,
no common wealth.
For love is life,
'tis all too true.
I live my life,
just to love you.
= Mark Abbott=
Hahaha... erm.. but i think the last sentence very stressful right?
I have seen my fair share of people breaking up, meeting someone new in their life, making a huge mistake that cost the whole relationship, hanging on to a relationship that has no life but still doesn't want to believe that is gone, love turns to hate and misery.
Some times i feel bless that even though i come from a broken up family. To me i have seen what love can and cannot do. It can blind a person but yet it can give a person the strength to do anything despite everyone is against it.
And because of my parents i see too much since a child, that i come to treasure all the relationship i have in my life. Because i know how hard it is trying to maintain a relationship and how difficult it is to meet someone that you love and loves you back.
So for this i Thank you, Daddy, Mummy. Thank you for spending 17 years of my life showing me a lifetime worth of lessons on love.
And to the person in my life now, thank you for just being you.... AND LET'S MAKE LOVE THAT WILL SHAME THE SUN, YA? =)
----I promise i won't be like you----
Dorky Dorky.... Choo Choo....
Saturday, June 19, 2010 || 11:08 PM
Took this picture in the photo booth in the arcade without anyone knowing... Hee.... So long never see Mami already for almost one week!!! I really miss her and her saying " Grace arh!! " whenever i do something not lady like.. Hahaha... Just love to piss her off...
Mami Eating this huge ass chocolate fudge tier layered cake! Seriously i swear it looks huge and it is super tall and big.. i really admire her for eating everything on that plate!! Just eat and eat and eat....
Concentration!!! Actually i think she also look scare just by looking at it.
Me trying on Mami's glasses!! Camwhore for abit...
I like the pic the most!! I look funny sia!!
Anyway was fun cause i was able to meet with MAMI!!! And i had a long conversation with Ah Yong today!! Me LOVES.... Miss him soo even though it has only been 2 days... But well if you are in love, this is quite normal i guess... Hee...
Yay, maybe tml i will going out with him. Cause god knows when he will be free to go out with me again once his work start on 22 next Tuesday... I will be damn sad cannot see him, but will make a point to call him and sms him ba.. Hope he doesn't think i am being such a bother to him... (Fingers cross) I am looking forward for tml!! Think i shall wear the long dress ba.... Must at least let him see a bit of the girly side first before he starts work and disappear sia!!!
Sad today was at SUNTEC the whole day and he was at SWISS HOTEL. We were so close yet so far sia... If i have known then could ask him out for lunch and maybe dinner too.. sob sob... If i am not at my father's house, i would have waited for him to get off work and go home with him together.... And maybe bought donuts as supper for him... But all well, i missed it... Sob sob...
Oh yar i bought a frog mouse today!!! YAY!!! i love it!! So happy to being using it now!! The feeling is great... Yes i know i am finding happiness in the simplest things in life like a very simple frog shape mouse!! But that is what makes up life right? All the little things....
Ok will post more pictures tml if possible... On our Second outing ba... hahaha... Well will do it soon!!!
Miss ya Ah Yong!!!
Explanations and Misunderstanding
|| 1:14 AM
I didn't think that you would think that way and was so angry to the point that you wouldn't give us a chance to explain and just assume about it. You know me better than anyone for such a long time, you mean the world to me. Both you and da jie, how you guys view me is the most important. You guys have been there for me for so long so you all should know better.
What you have said to me was hurtful and uncalled for. Maybe it was because i was too sensitive about what you say. But that is because you mean a lot to me, thus the assumption about what you meant in your texts.
But i am glad that everything is being cleared and that there is no more misunderstanding between us. You are always my sister and a friend to me.... I really hope you can continue to be in my life and support me when i fall... I will do the same and even more for you, this i am sure...
Today i learnt that no matter how strong a friendship or sisterhood is it can be broken through misunderstanding and communication breakdown.... Until it really touch and burn you, you will then realize how fragile and small it is. And we should learn to carry it in the palm of hands and protect it like no other. Never letting anything or anyone come close to it, to even take a peek as to what is holding all together... I was made in flesh and bones and but you guys are my heart and blood, i will never trade you guys for anything in the world....
.........This i promise........
Mr Prata Man to the rescue!!!
Friday, June 18, 2010 || 3:36 AM
I just came back from staying at his house for almost 2 days. Recently have been going to his house often during the start of my holidays.. Missed him very much...
Anyway, we went to Ikea out first outing... Wanted to wear a dress but in the end i realize that it wasn't dry yet and it was raining since morning!!! So Shiok i tell ya... Almost didn't want to get up.
I was debating what to wear, LONG DRESS OR SHORT DRESS?? In the end, i wore my usual tank top and my shorts which he always sees me in. So he didn't see my girly side yet.. Oh well never mind, he will see it soon... I plan to wear dress to the next outing and then he will see my girly side... Muwahahaha.....
So after the trip to ikea and after eating 2 hotdogs Ah Yong was still hungry and so we proceed to Giant to get Sushi!! Hahaha.. On the way to get the sushi, Ah Yong took my camera and start taking random shots, trying to improve his camera skills... hahaha...
Anyway once we bought the sushi, we sat down at the bench outside Giant cashier area. He wanted to eat the tako (Octopus) Sushi but knew that i like it, so he gave it to me... I was very happy when he did that... B never did this type of things to me before. I really felt lucky to have met Ah Yong... ~Smiles~
Then we when to take a shuttle bus from Ikea to Bedok MRT then make our way to Plaza Sing to meet er jie, Sean and da jie to have dinner together... But on the way to Bedok the dinner was sadly cancelled. So we headed back to Tampines to catch a Movie called The A-Team. Which was pretty good, i feel.. Our first movie!! Hahaha... I was a happy person that day..
Then we went back home... His mother was surprising friendly and good towards me... I felt really happy about that, i was easily accepted to a small part of his life... Well, i will try my best to remain there for the longest time possible alright? Hee... :D
Oh on Monday i stayed over at his house again, and that time i actually cooked!! He cooked tom yam for me, something he owe me since we knew each other.. And i fry vegetables with the help from him, but nevertheless i touched the frying pan!! I know you all must be thinking i am very useless cause i never actually cooked before..But really i dun really know how to cook.. But i know the procedures and how it is being done... I have observe my Grandma and Aunt cooked before and i find it to be very fun and entertaining if it is being done as a couple..
Oh gosh tom yam was fabulous!! I loved it, the spiciness i can still take it though. But he really can eat a lot of chili sia...I am now officially scared for my taste buds... Sob sob!!
Oh sidetrack for awhile... But his mother bought a pair of slippers for me, cause she notice that my slippers was going to spoil.. WOW, my eyes is watery sia!!! I am sooooooooooo x 100000 times touched.. I overwhelmed by her friendlessness and how she open up to me..
Now the main purpose for this post is to let me, of course bullshit but to also give my dear Ah Pek, Ah Yong, Ali, Cranky old man credit for this the blog skin... He help me up load pictures and taught me stuffs to do about the blog.. I kept changing pictures edit here and there, change here and there.. He never, not even once complain about it!!! Just listening to me and helping me one request at a time.. Sob sob... I wanna cry.. (T.T) haha...
All I wanna say is, I love dear!!! I know from the start and this feeling will not stop!! Hee... I am always here for you, even when you least expect it, i will be at your side to hold your hand through the storm. You can count on that!!
MUCKS PEOPLE! I HAD A WONDERFUL AND JOYOUS DAY, HOW ABOUT YOU? PEACE Y'ALL!!!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010 || 7:59 AM
Yay!! I will be going out with him for our like so called first date ba...
If that's what you call it. Hee...
I am happy and excited!! We will be going to Ikea to have lunch and shop around for his speakers and to find something to hang the painting I did for him...
I think I will post pictures soon for this blog!! Seriously my blog lag of pictures I tell ya..
I have been posting pictures on FB but never had the time to actually sit my ass in front of the com and post pictures in my blog..
So i shall start from now....
Every time i go out with him, i will be sure to take some pictures.
i realize i have been taking a lot of pictures lately and have seem to have fallen in love with it.. So yeah, i am sooo going ot start taking more and more pictures from now on.
So as to not bore my readers, if there is any by the way...
So yup will be going to go to Ikea soon and i will post something in here SOON!!!
