Tainted Nails and a Roses of Tattoo

"I'm In LOVE with a Fairytale,take ME away Mr Prata Man”

Dear mum....

Friday, July 23, 2010 || 11:48 AM

Dear Mum,
Recently i dunno what you are trying to do in your relationship with Eric. I am always here for you. I will be there when you fall and i will hold on to you and never let go. But I dun want you to get hurt again! Getting hurt in the last marriage is enough, you dun have to suffer again in another marriage, you don't deserve it.

Mum, please listen to what i have to say, I really want you to be happy and able to date someone who love you for who you are. And you dun have to constantly chase after him, you can do it for one year. two years then what about 30 years down the road? Can you still promise yourself that you will be able to do it? Dun you feel tired? I know how tiring it can be.

Dun make the same mistake again. I am worried whether can he stand up to his family and tell them, so what if you are divorce and have a 19 year old daughter. I want him to want, just as you are. I dun want you to be bullied by his family after you are in the family. I will not allow it, I will be come the bad daughter to prevent anything like that to happen. I dun care whether you will hate me, I cannot see you suffer again! I just can't.

I am sorry Mum. I love you too much to see you walk off a cliff and into the pit of fire. I just can't! I want to see him, i want to ask him. How far does he see you with him? I want to know what does he have planned for you two both... I dun care if i play the bitch here.. But i will get my answers.

So mum please listen and weight the pros and cons. Because you dunno how far the ripples of your actions goes. Please listen...

Food ART......

Monday, July 19, 2010 || 8:28 PM

Pac man, I love the ghosts..

Cute little robots, I love the red one and the last one..

My favorite of all... I love the milkshakes.. The straws are so cute!!

Dun you feel happy looking of food or pastries so carefully made and decorated so perfectly that you feel that it should not be eaten but instead placed in a museum?

I have no idea how to eat it, i can't even stop looking at it, let alone place the damn thing in my mouth!! I will feel damn guilty eating it, i tell ya...

Hais... How i wish i am able to make such beautiful cupcakes too...

---- Awwwww Man ----

Because i love the way his hand reach out to hold mine....

Sunday, July 18, 2010 || 5:35 AM

My boyfriend is a heartless bastard and this bastard stole my heart away.....
Heart of stone...

Because i love the way his hand reach out to hold mine....

Love the way he talks to the cat at the bus stop (and many more animals and non living objects) ....

Love the way he hugs me to sleep...

Love the way he give me a cheeky smile....

Love the way he pulls the chair, i am sitting on towards him to kiss me...

Loves the way he laugh at something or someone stupid.....

Love the way how considerate he is to me....

--- Indulge me for awhile ---

Mummy dearest...........

|| 4:55 AM

Mum and I have grown apart... Not like we dun talk to each other anymore, it is just that we dun feel a need to tell everything to each other... I dun like this change because i was so close to her before.. And like what my aunt say, If i dun keep this bond close then the link between us will be gone... I can't bare to see it be gone just like that...

When she is not at home and i am left alone in the room.. The whole room feels like this picture... I feel so alone and sometimes empty.. That's why i dun like to stay at home when she is not there... I am made by god to live my life with some one and to share whatever i am going through in my life. I need to talk to someone and feel the warmth that that special someone emits when he hugs me or hold my hands when i am cold... I can't live alone... I just can't....

I cannot sail alone in the sea. I need someone to be there to guide me and be there for me through the stormy sea. And i have realize that my mother is no longer that person there for me.. Yes, she will be there if i ever needed help. But i know myself that i will never ask her, if i know that what i am asking is too much... Cause she have her own life and own set of problems...

And i have believe that i have found that someone, who i have unknowingly become so depend on. I have been staying over at his house quite often, so much so that sometimes when i am at home, i am not use to the quietness in my house... Without him beside me.. Hahaha... Even though he is playing his games on the computer and i am laying on his bed watching my TV series on my lappy... I still feel at least he is there...

We had our first argument on Tuesday and that was when i realize that whatever he does really affect me... Creepy!!!! Hahaha... I will always sms him whenever i am free.. Cause i know that he is not very good in starting a conversation on sms or even on the phone.. He is more of a face to face person. So during that period i almost died!!! I swear..... Cause i wasn't able to talk to him and i didn't want him to continue being mad at me..

So in the end i sms him this " Are you still mad at me or will you let me spend my holidays with you?" Hahaha... I admit. i broke the silence... I dun think that he will sms me if i dun talk to him for 3 days.. He will think that i am very busy doing stuffs.. Hais...

All i know is that i love him and that he is already a part in my life...

P.s When i am over at his house, I feel as though i am already living with him. And even though we hardly go out to shopping malls or fancy restaurant to dine, i still feel very happy and loved.

Our first MONTH!!!

Monday, July 5, 2010 || 7:15 AM

1 July 2010

This is a very late update of our first month together, but nevertheless here are the photos...

I feel that time passes so fast, last time i was bothered about how is this relationship going to end? ( As in will we be together?) I kept wondering and guessing what is he thinking or what does this action means. But now i am not anymore, if i have any doubts i am able to tell him straight away and let him know how i feel. I dun have to guess anymore. We are together for one month already, everything is fine and i feel very blessed to have met him and move on from my previous relationship. I am very happy, i really am.

I bet you never see this side of him before!! Hahaha... I like this photo cause it is totally fake but he look so cute sia.. Like a little kid.. Hahaha... Me likes..

Ok this is me being Farking Retarded... But nevertheless this is his fav pic.. So i decided to put it in too... Hahaha... the next one will be the retarded picture of both of us..

Now this is the retarded pic!! Nice right? Hahaha.. Who am i kidding we both look weird... Hahaha... I love Ah yong face... I have never seen him make this type of face before... As in the first picture he did it a couple of times before i caught it on camera.. But this face was epic sia... I love it!! Show me a whole new side of Ah Yong.. Hahaha...

Please look at Ah Yong CONTENTED face!! Hahaha... Sorry if my face is like too BIG cause he is damn tall lah!! I have to freaking tip toe to do that... so BU HAO YI SHI if my face is like taking half of the picture...

Finally one normal picture!! I love this out of the whole bunch.. NICE NICE NICE NICE NICE!!! I can't stop staring at the picture. Cause we look just so normal and happy.. EVEN though we are not like grinning ear to ear but we both look genuinely happy and contented dun you think?

3 years later......

Thursday, July 1, 2010 || 4:33 PM

This is something close to my dream house!! You will know why is suddenly say this statement...

We were eating at a hawker centre near his apartment, we found our seats and order curry chicken curry. As we sat down and began to eat and i want to add, I WAS STARVING!! So basically i was very engross on how to eat the chicken thigh without getting myself cover with curry.. Opps.. I have just reveal my not so good side... ~ shy ~

Then he suddenly said: "I wonder where will you be in 3 years time from now"
NOTE : He said when will YOU be...."
And not : " where will WE be in 3 years time... "

I was sad as i though he didn't see us together after 3 years.. What the hell right!!!
I know he was waiting for my reply cause he went silent for a while, but i couldn't answer him cause i was busy eating the chicken thigh... heee...

So i tried to make a sound like " hmmm...." Hahaha retarded i know, i dun want him to think that i am ignoring him what!!! Anyway he continue after the retarded me make some noise...
He said : " You will be working, I will have my bike and we will have ..........

OUR APARTMENT AND I CAN DRIVE YOU TO WORK."

I was suddenly on cloud nine again!!! Was in shock actually!! My whole world was spinning!! He actually plan about it!! Even though it is only three years later but he did include me in his life!! I am mad happy sia!!1 Seriously i was damn happy!! I cannot place enough emphasis on how happy i was feeling!!!

Again the things he said, surprise me!! He never fails to do it and it only makes me love him more... He plays a huge part in my life unknowingly but i know that i have to be independent and i cannot always depend on him too!!!

But nevertheless, i know if the sky is falling, my dear old man, Ah Yong, will be there to hold it for me!! Hahaa..

AND FOR THAT I WILL BE WILLING TO DO EVEN MORE FOR YOU, MR PRATA MAN!!

The things that you say

|| 2:48 PM

On 26/06/2010

You said " lets go and see couple lab."

I said "Orh."

Feeling weird and uneasy, cause i dunno why suddenly you want to go there. But nevertheless, we went.

Then you said " WE should get a ring."

I place a huge emphasis on the WE cause of a second i heard as "I should get a ring" I as in him.

But he is not someone who will spend money on making himself look good or what, cause he doesn't like to spend on money on unnecessary things.

Then i said " FOR?"

Oh for goodness sake!! Grace!! All you can say is FOR? For you and him lah!! You retarded gal!!!

I know I was recovering from shock but i have no control over my mouth and brain for that one second!!! My brain was experiencing 10000000 volts of electricity going through my brain!!! Once the word left my mouth and i realize what i say.

I had to control the urge of ramming my self into the nearest wall. And just die there!!!

Then later at night we were talking on Msn

and

He said " Was actually thinking of getting it for quite some time already but just dunno your ring size. "

Oh my gosh, i wanted to cry at that very moment!! Hahaha... I believe anybody who knows him, knows that he doesn't say these things at all.. So when he said it to me, maybe to him it was just saying something, like how do you do... But to me it really means something important!!

I am soooo grateful and happy to have him in life!! And yes people i know that i am still in the honeymoon period ok!!! But as my BIATCH say just enjoy the moment!! hee...

----I love you!!----