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Mummy dearest...........
Sunday, July 18, 2010 || 4:55 AM
Mum and I have grown apart... Not like we dun talk to each other anymore, it is just that we dun feel a need to tell everything to each other... I dun like this change because i was so close to her before.. And like what my aunt say, If i dun keep this bond close then the link between us will be gone... I can't bare to see it be gone just like that...
When she is not at home and i am left alone in the room.. The whole room feels like this picture... I feel so alone and sometimes empty.. That's why i dun like to stay at home when she is not there... I am made by god to live my life with some one and to share whatever i am going through in my life. I need to talk to someone and feel the warmth that that special someone emits when he hugs me or hold my hands when i am cold... I can't live alone... I just can't....
I cannot sail alone in the sea. I need someone to be there to guide me and be there for me through the stormy sea. And i have realize that my mother is no longer that person there for me.. Yes, she will be there if i ever needed help. But i know myself that i will never ask her, if i know that what i am asking is too much... Cause she have her own life and own set of problems...
And i have believe that i have found that someone, who i have unknowingly become so depend on. I have been staying over at his house quite often, so much so that sometimes when i am at home, i am not use to the quietness in my house... Without him beside me.. Hahaha... Even though he is playing his games on the computer and i am laying on his bed watching my TV series on my lappy... I still feel at least he is there...
We had our first argument on Tuesday and that was when i realize that whatever he does really affect me... Creepy!!!! Hahaha... I will always sms him whenever i am free.. Cause i know that he is not very good in starting a conversation on sms or even on the phone.. He is more of a face to face person. So during that period i almost died!!! I swear..... Cause i wasn't able to talk to him and i didn't want him to continue being mad at me..
So in the end i sms him this " Are you still mad at me or will you let me spend my holidays with you?" Hahaha... I admit. i broke the silence... I dun think that he will sms me if i dun talk to him for 3 days.. He will think that i am very busy doing stuffs.. Hais...
All i know is that i love him and that he is already a part in my life...
P.s When i am over at his house, I feel as though i am already living with him. And even though we hardly go out to shopping malls or fancy restaurant to dine, i still feel very happy and loved.
