Sorry for being a bore... But i am really very bored.. And i have nothing to do. Holidays are over.. And i will be starting school on Monday.. Oh God... I hate the feeling of starting school.. No no, dun get me wrong i dun hate school.. In fact, i think i like it. And i like going to school to be with friends ans bitch about everything to what the lecturers are wearing to how certain people really gets on my nerves.. Haha... School life.. Better enjoy it while you can..

But Now there is so much things in my mind right now! So many worries.. Things that are beyond my control.. But yet keeps continuing to bug me like a leech that is sucking gallons of blood from my body.. HATE IT!!!

My GPA dropped again by 0.1... Yes even though it is 0.1 but i am still irritated by it. I told myself that i have to improve and not reprove.. But what am i do?? HUH HUH HUH!!! Hais..

Then comes my parents stuff.. Parents love to make things as complicated as them can possibly make. And i am all caught up in the middle.. Come on!! They are already divorced, living their separate lives.. Why do they still have to live SIMILAR lives.. and have SIMILAR problems?? How can i not be caught up in it? I am your child.. I will always be there when something happens..

Oh god.. Please give me the strength and powerful to hold myself up and keep pushing through.. Not giving up.. I have to get a good job to be able to take care of my parents.. They both have a started a new life.. My father and his girlfriend, my mother and her boyfriend.. And people say they i can't deal with complicated?? Phss... My family is complication itself.. I may have a step sibling from my mother and another one from my father!! Talking about screwing up??

I am not being angry or being unreasonable.. I am understanding to what my parents are going through now.. I know that they have gotten out of an unhappy marriage and have now finally found someone.. I am happy for them.. I really am.. But please dun forget that you are also a parent to me and my sisters.. My mum forgot my birthday yesterday.. When she was out with her boyfriend.. Hahaha... Seriously i didn't know it was this bad... Hahaha...

Damn i really should move out and get my own life once i graduate.. I have another house at Pasir Ris.. I could go and live there with him.. The two of us always wanted to be away from family.. Always seeing ourselves as independent people..

Hahaha... I really dun have anybody that is really close to me ( at my father side... ) I see the need to make any small talk.. Hais... I am tried for being someone i not with them.. I guess one day i will just have to scare them!! Hahah.. Appear in front of them with a different attitude and with some tattoos on me?? hahaha...

MAYBE I WILL??