Time changes everything, even you and I have changed

*NERDY MAMA!
Hey hey. My parents are Hoochie Mama and Nerdy Papa, hence my name is Nerdy Mama.
I wear a pair of RED-framed glasses, which i think i look good in. Hee... And I'm seen with a book wherever I go. I'm a geek who is living in my little world full of Elves, Pixie Dust and Tiny Shoemakers. My friends know me for the crazy biatch i am sometimes, but of course the typical me don't give a damn. I in love with the man, that is the complete opposite of me BUT nevertheless i believe we were made for each other, dun you think so?
-That's me (-_____-)
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    "I'm In LOVE with a Fairytale,take ME away Mr Prata Man”
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    Forgetting Mr Prata Man...
    Sunday, May 23, 2010 || 5:40 AM

    Random right? I know about the title of the blog today yoz... But only today i felt like a kid that i was during secondary school, when i was able to laugh freely and just be the loud and wild kid i once was.. I felt a need to get away from everything in my area...

    I left my house with an intend to find laughter and i found it. Today i felt that i laugh the hardest and with all the strength that i had... I was happy that for that few hours i didn't think of u...

    What BIATCH said was right, talking to him only make me talk about another him even more, and yet nothing is being solve... So what is the point in talking about? It only make me more confuse, sad and lost.. So i wanted to get away from it for awhile... So i decided to move back to see my secondary school sister... Soon Seow Ying aka Dory... Hahaha..

    Going back to Serangoon area i felt as though i am back to the past, when i was only a 15 year old kid... Listening to one of my sisters playing the Guzheng never fails to calm me down and make think things clearly.. As i watch her finger so gracefully move over the various string i really though about u... And felt that you were the player and i am the instrument, that you bring out the best in me.. i will produce one of the most beautiful sound... but when you are not around i tend to be quiet and i will slowly get forgotten in the background.

    But i slowly had to realize that maybe your passion isn't as deep and long as i expected to be.. And now when i am left alone in the closet, i still cannot produce the exact same sound when you played me... and i know i never will... Then i know that that sound belongs to you and only you can command it. At least for that one moment when i was thinking about it i smiled.

    Maybe i should just stop, thinking about everything and let it flow as it is suppose to flow... I want to help you and every time i see a lost look on your face, i really want to hold you and tell you that there is always me that you can confine to.. But i dun dare to do anything, not knowing where i stand in your life, makes me hesitate....

    He once told me that i shouldn't hope for anything, when he said that my heart sank and i was prepare for the worse. I remember telling him that i had a bad feeling about it. I didn't know what it was and now i have a feeling that that day will come soon. It felt so weird cause everything felt soo right and natural. I needn't hold back anything i felt at that moment. I know what i am saying doesn't make sense, everything that is running through my head is bit and piece of incidents. Nothing make sense in the first place.

    I wun forget and pretend nothing has ever happen.. I will still be that same one me.. Trying hard to be at your side when you need someone. But i dun dare hope for anything anymore. I will let fate or whatever you may call it, moves and flow as it pleases and see from there.. Where should i move from... hais..